Words..

Yes, wanting to watch First Time eversince I watched the trailer.. Thought it would only be out in August so did not rushed to tell boyfriend about it. Yesterday saw the movie's poster and told him i want to watch it... Unfortunately he did not heard me.
& today, off he went to watch it with his friends..
I'm not saying that he couldn't watch it with his friends. But romance movie, hardly available in cinemas isn't it? Always more to action, comedy, thrilling movies.. I missed the chance of watching the last romance movie with him, Love You You. I remembered when I wanted to watch it the last time in the cinema... He complained it was a chinese love story so he did not want to watch it. He prefer english ones.
I did not ask for more, we just chose another movie and watch.

& I've always looked forward to watch First Time with him. I've always think that watching romance movie with the one you love is the most beautiful thing ever. Isn't it?
But yet, another show was failed...

I've been really mean, hot tempered, selfish, demanding and i kept on bombing him eversince he's out from the cinema. I just cant find the rigid reason that he should watch with me again. I find it insignificant. Imagine you are sitting with someone who watched the show. If it's not romance show i dont mind. But romance show. The part where make your heart breaks, heart touched or anything.
It will be First Time. Not, Second Time.... I wish I could watch it with him, but i just cant control my temper towards him right now. Perhaps it is right that we should cool down and have our own time.

Only if I could be cheered up easily.
Only if someone can read what I'm thinking.
Eventhough I voiced out, what's the use?


God, I'm really lost. I love him, but what can I do? I cant make things better. We cant turn back time. Please save me from drowning. I feel like running away... A day, is better than nothing.