481 Days.

After quarrelling last night, I thought things might get better.
I'm not sure what has gotten in me, I admit I've been really harsh lately. So today I went to your uni together with you, things were going on smoothly, until after lunch.
For me I felt really weird to have a stranger sitting together with us in the quiet study room. The impression I had for that particular person was not good, therefore I felt uneasy. Permission of joining us was not even asked at all. I'm being over sensitive here, I guess? I did not talk so much today because of the presence of her. There was a time today when you guys were talking about the medical terms which I totally do not know, I felt like I'm a third person in the room together with you guys. Felt so terrible.
Only if I was smart enough to join you for medicine course. I wished.
Then later you went mms together with her. I went to the restroom when you were there for perhaps like half an hour, and I walked past you, I just realized you were there in the mms museum. I saw both of you were the people left there, and you guys were just talking while relaxing.. I meant like at that moment my mind was so fucked up? I shouldnt bother and I chose to remain silent. And your other friends actually said you could finish the mms in 10 minutes :/ I wished I did not hear that. At least I could think you really took a long time to do the mms questions.
Next you came back to the room, she came along. When you wanted to refill my bottle, she asked you to refill hers too. There's no way you could reject I believe, because you are being a gentleman right there. I do not blame you, instead I blamed myself for being so sensitive and high in jealousy level. Well for me I just felt that when one has a girlfriend or even the girlfriend is right there, one shouldn't make her as an invisible person isn't it? I felt like I am not being respected. Com'on, he's my boyfriend and you're asking him to do things that he only does for the girlfriend. I was really pissed off and upset at the same time. I teared, I am sorry for making you that worried. But I just couldn't control.
While I was waiting for you to pack your stuffs, she waited for you too. It made me felt like, she always waited for you to walk to the car together. Yes, it does not mean anything, but sigh, i just dislike it. I know I am acting like a bitch right here, being so close-minded. I wished I was never like that. Perhaps her actions do not mean anything, but it made me thought of a lot of stuffs. Unfortunately.
The reason I did not want to follow you to the birthday dinner is because I do not want you to feel that I ain't letting you having your own time with your mates. I know sometimes guys prefer to be around his friends without his girlfriend. I insisted not to join. I just dont wish to make your life that miserable with my presence.